My senior year of high school, everyone was talking about senioritis. Urban Dictionary defines senioritis as, “noun. A crippling disease that strikes high school seniors. Symptoms include: laziness, an over-excessive wearing of track pants, old athletic shirts, sweatpants, athletic shorts, and sweatshirts. Also features a lack of studying, repeated absences, and a generally dismissive attitude. The only known cure is a phenomenon known as graduation.” I personally have always considered senioritis to be something that can occur as a college senior as well. I certainly had it when I graduated college. Any day I could get out of wearing adult clothing, a.k.a days I wasn’t working, I was sporting the college mascot on my sweatpants. Similarly, I was much more concerned with having a good time and making memories my last year in college, instead of my grades and being a consistent person.
This semester I certainly have some sort of academic disease. However, it doesn’t feel like senioritis. I certainly have been socializing more with my peers, but not like I have in other times in my life. It is more to actually get to know them in the first place, and not really to create memories that we will all remember for the rest of time. Everyday that I can get away with wearing yoga pants, I will. In fact, my 1L year I even wore yoga pants with a blazer and no one noticed (#winning). So, as you can see with that anecdote, I just have a comfortable clothes problem. Probably not at all associated with senioritis, but instead an overall sense of laziness. I have been struggling with getting my homework done, even in classes that I like. Now, this is unique. Even in classes I loathe, I can usually get my homework done. Even in high school and college, I got all my assignments done (not well, but done).
I have identified my symptoms. So….what do I have? Although I cannot consult with WebMD, I think I might be able to self-diagnose: I am burned out.
This is my final semester in the classroom, my schedule is the best of all the semesters of law school so far, and I do like most of my classes. Why am I struggling? Urban Dictionary defines burnout as, “A state of emotional and physical exhaustion caused by a prolonged period of stress and frustration; an inevitable corporate condition characterized by frequent displays of unprofessional behavior, a blithe refusal to do any work, and most important, a distinct aura of not giving a ****.” Well…..that just about hit the nail on the head.
Now the question is, what is the cure for burnout? Well, I haven’t found the answer on the Internet. But I won’t stop trying. And if I figure it out, I’ll let you know. Because getting burned out is inevitable. Law school is a marathon, and I have hit a wall. But every runner knows that a wall can be beaten. The end is near; let's finish strong.